New Years Resolutions

Current mood: indecisive

Dear Blog,

New Year's Day. Time to do laundry, play on the computer, and decide on my life course for the year.

I just can't decide what to do! I'm considering whether or not to buy that condo I looked at yesterday. If I do buy it, am I getting a good deal? The realtor said he'd knock off 3 percent of the $287,000 asking price (supposedly because I'm a teacher and I'm doing something to help society) but $277,700 is still an enormous amount of money to pay for something that I'm not really that excited about. Plus, there's no washer and dryer inside the unit. I'd have to schlep my clothes to the laundryroom. What's the point of owning your own home if you can't even do laundry in it?

When I went to Dallas in August 2003, I could have bought a one bedroom with washer/dryer included, in a luxury building in Turtle Creek for $167,000! I just wasn't ready. Am I now?

Damn! I hate that I'm so freakin' wishy-washy! Actually, I think I've decided. I'm not going to buy it. Damn! I'm mad at myself for that, too! What am I waiting for? I found a great condo but it was in Dallas and I wasn't ready, so I didn't get it. I found a so-so condo in my city but I'm not excited about it either, so I'm not gonna get it. What, do I need an engraved invitation?!

I even felt that way about my trip to France. I was thinking about cancelling my reservation and forgetting about it because of the money. Then I realized that I probably couldn't do better on my own...plus, I'm not as young and good-looking as I once was, so "solo" travel is not the exciting prospect that it used to be. Plus, I'm in a committed relationship now and can't just go bang some foreigner any time the mood strikes me!

I'm a little nervous about how I will hold up to the "strenuous" walking involved on the Rick Steves France trip. It was only seven months ago that I was using a walker! What if something happens to me while I'm in France and my whole, expensive trip is ruined (like in Fiji, when I injured my spine)?

Plus, I don't remember how to speak French. Two years in high school 20 some-odd years ago? French people are famous for being rude, especially Parisians. Especially if you don't speak French. I will just have to "train". I should start walking every day. In fact, I should start walking while listening to French tapes/CDs.

Okay, Blog, I think I've made some good decisions:

1) I will not buy the condo, because I don't want to buy a place where I can't do laundry inside. That means I shall have to start looking again!

2) I will walk each weekday. No promises as to how long or how far.

3) I will listen to French cassettes/CDs to learn French while I walk (and sometimes in my car).

4) I will make more attempts to write to you, dear Blog.

As ever, Angel